an article explaining some of schizophrenia

i made some additions on 4/21/18 at the bottom.





I’m going to type another article on schizophrenia now. I don’t mean what I type here to be a complaint considering I have schizophrenia myself – this is more intended to inform people about the condition; the real condition and not what lore and stereotypes have said about it.



In my last article on schizophrenia I mainly covered hallucinations – yes, people with this condition can hallucinate with any sense. More common is visual and hearing, but even smell can be hallucinated. My doctor has told me most people with this condition don’t hear the “voices” around other people, but sometimes I do hear them around other people. when hearing auditory hallucinations around other people, well it’s confusing to the point that the person hearing those hallucinations can have a panic attack. I have.



But there are symptoms like delusions of grandeur where a person can think they’re super important, like God talks to them, or that they’re an alien with much knowledge sent to earth to teach us. This probably sounds funny, but it’s not. People truly believe these things and for those who do, they can get in some serious trouble for thinking this way.



Often people with schizophrenia will think other people can read their minds. This happens to me a lot and it stinks to say the least. Imagine not being free even in your own mind.



A similar symptom but nearly reverse is that the person thinks they’re sending their thoughts to other people. This is called “broadcasting”. For most people with this condition broadcasting is uncontrollable and after a while They start to try to think just things that are “acceptable” to think or not think at all. This one happens to me also.

On of the lesser known symptoms of this condition is “ideas of reference” and “delusions of reference”. The difference is the person thinks it, or the person knows it. As an example, they might be driving past a fast food place and their sign will say something like “cheeseburgers half off when you purchase a large soda” – the person with this symptom could think “I love cheeseburgers. That sign is meant for me to see”



Ideas and delusions of reference themselves are not that bad of a symptom, but they can quickly lead to paranoia – which is horrid.

99 million worries

99 million worries and i'm still going strong
over the years only got a few complaints that i'm doing it wrong
so i'm going to continue my song, come on now lets all sing along

and i live a pretty shitty life but from this end it's grand
beauty is in the eye of the beholder. hold up while i do a hand stand
good friends and family so i dont care if i'm ever in high demand

all these fools chasing money like it's a drug
one that they can't get enough of
hold out a hundred and watch the snakes push and shove

what a disgrace we have made of the human race
women carry mace cause men give chase
and if your trying to make it in this world it's one big maze

well hey man, pick your poison
or live your life on the run
eventually you come to a dead stop
same as anyone

this is a poem about how i have come so far in defeating a lot of my mental health problems that i actually like my life most days now. it is not finished yet, but i couldn't wait to share what i have so far :D

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If today I were to die
Even if by suicide
I earned my pride

Shit.. getting past the hallucinations alone was Vietnam
And now I’m at the age that I have friends who were in.. Vietnam

Not that I want to die
No no no my friends,

I have a beautiful life
You read me right
I want to live this life